When You Know, You Know

You ever sit back and wonder what your purpose is? Like why are you here and what should you be doing? I spent most of my life thinking this. I feel like when we are in school, we are rushed to decide what we want to be when we grow up. We graduate high school and then have to head right to college, pick a degree and that is that.

As a little girl, I always loved playing school down in the basement with my neighborhood bestfriend and our stuffed animals. That was probably one of the best memories from my childhood. That passion I felt being a teacher, carried on into college. I thought that because I enjoyed teaching my Winnie The Pooh stuffed animal, teaching was my calling.

I wasn't far off. I began substitute teaching and really loved being in the classroom. I had decided teaching was for me and ended up getting my Master's in Education, only to shortly realize, it wasn't my calling. The moment the state I moved to wouldn't accept my degree without me taking more courses and trainings, was the moment I realized NOPE this isn't it.

I was in and out of some pretty crappy jobs, that just discouraged me. Jobs that made me doubt myself, my ability and my professionalism. Was this all I was capable of? Crap jobs that had shitty hours, paid like crap and treated me like crap?